It’s the weekend and I should have been happy and excited. But for some reasons I'm not. I've not been feeling happy for a couple of days and I'm not sure I can even put a name on what's bothering me. Somehow it feels like everything is changing so rapidly around me and I'm the only person standing still. Everything is different and yet, deep down it's the same old story.
*sigh*
I guess that once you've been through hell, you never forget what the flames felt like. No matter how hard you try to hide your hurt, your anger and your pain, someday one little thing comes up and hit you so hard that you're instantly reminded of the plain cold reality.
I have lost faith and I have stopped to believe in myself. I thought I was alright but I was probably just fooling my heart.
Lost another kg off me. The ring used to fit my index finger is now my thumb ring and the rings for my ring finger, is now on my index finger. Sound alright? Maybe.. except that the design is simply weird on the wrong fingers. Bought 2 pairs of new jeans, coz the existing ones were too lose. One from Levi's and another from Zara, glad that the Zara pair is just half the price.
Sometimes it's easier to smile and pretend everything is fine than to explain the current situation and the lost in my heart..