So many things happened during the last few days and now I dont even know where to start..
I lost 2kg during the past 2 weeks I didnt smile for the past 3 days
Many people asked me "What happened?" Many people asked me "What can I do to make you smile again?" Many people wanted to visit me but I rejected..
Jess, thanks for calling and checking on me everyday. I'm feeling much better today. You too, Cheryl. Thanks..
Last night, I forced a smile when WL tried to cheer me.
Last night, I smiled too when Kel and his bunk mates sang me a army song. I smiled coz they were nice and united. I am glad Kel found some nice friends in the camp and I'll pray for his happiness.
Last night, I spoke to Green on msn. His display name message is 'FLYFF has become my past, a wonderful memory that I shall cherish in my heart". He thought I quitted. Actually, I have no mood in playing games during this period. As for FLYFF, I dont see my friends everytime I login. I think my most enjoyed time in this game was during my Lvl 40 ~ Lvl 70. This week, for the first time, my auto-patch failed to work after maintenance. WHY? why all happened this week?
Three nights ago, I took out my little white book.. read through from page 1 to the end. Took a very deep inhale (just like ghost sucking human's soul) of the book. I smelled him. I found a nice pink envelope and sealed the book. I have dropped some tears when I reading it, so I guessed I have sealed this book with my tears..
I still have no intention of sharing with anyone on what exactly happened to me. If you asking me "Are you ok?", the answer is "no". I can only say I dont have any feelings now.. My heart used to skip a beat when someone says I love you to me. Now, I dont.. It doesnt make any difference who you are. It is who I am now.