Suddenly I realise that, eventhough I am not that close with some friends anymore, I still find them a comfort circle. Like how I read their blogs and everyone started tagging and..
Suddenly I feel that no matter how old we are we can still trust each other..
Suddenly I know that I am moving on to another stage in my life, and I start to miss everything in the past THAT much..
Suddenly things are not just happening right and feels like another mountain to climb..
Suddenly I regret not spending enough time with them when I had the chance..
It's like, I really really miss my friends, all of a sudden. Suddenly everything in life is not happening right, but yet I know I am still okay. Now I understand what it really feels like hanging there.
Am I being too harsh on myself lately? I just want to press a forward button to zooooom me to the end of the attachment. I am looking forward to graduation so much, because I know that by then I will be able to do all the things that I have been waiting to do. There are zillion things on my waiting list, and that definately includes catching up with my friends. I am looking forward for graduation, because it's like a new chapter beginning. Yet I dont know where to go. Every now and then when the train or the bus passes by a school, filmstrips of my school life start to unwind themselves.
I miss the recess that we had, I miss the julius caesar discussion, the hiding in the cupboard episode, the footdrill and high and low in guides, the Add maths lessons (yes all of a sudden I wanna go back and have Add maths lessons all over again)..
I miss the shopping trip in between lessons, I miss the late night coffee chats with Shan, I miss the stupid video we made, I miss all the silly fits of laughter when we saw weird-hairdo-guy..
Right now, there's something that I know I will surely regret and miss the most tomorrow.