If I were to make another choice, will things work out? This is not a life I could take now. I feel so helpless.
After all the tears, anger and loneliness, I am now getting back on my feet, with the thinking, "clear as much as possible for now", just nice for school.
This is not the life I want, but it leads me somewhere there, somehow. It just come along in a package. It's life afterall, right? Dont worry, I said, I will stand up again no matter what.
So much for a start of the year, I fall, pick up, and fall again. And I never fail to pick up. Happy year 2006, Anyway. I choose to be happy, still.
This is me and my life. Show me the way to fall and never get up.
What happened to me since the start of the New Year ?
I managed to finish reading all the books bought during the second half of 2005.
I played alot.
I went to movies.
I met up old friends.
Thinking back, it seemed I had so much time to do so much. The only problem is I totally have no idea which day I did those things.
It all happened after the New Year. Why ? Has the time stopped ? Has my heart stopped beating ? Why do I lost track of the dates ?
All I know now is.. he really loves me. And his name is Kelvin.